A Resolution

Oh damn! Did you need to read that? I sure did. I was on a search for great quotes and stumbled upon this one by Erica Jong. She just called me right out! It’s the beginning of a new year. The beginning of a new decade. I wouldn’t say I squandered my time, but I know I could have done more. Lived more, wrote more, made more noise. Instead of talking a good game, and could have actually played…

I knew I needed an obligatory Resolution post, but I didn’t really have the motivation until I read those words. When it comes to everyday kind of life I don’t necessarily care what other people think. I am who I am, I parent how I parent, I’m good with that for the most part (and that’s not to say I’m perfect, far from it really, but I try and I feel good about that). Following my passions though….that’s another story. Writing can be too raw, too real, too honest. Pouring yourself out on paper/screen/whatever leaves you open and vulnerable. Even if it’s fluff, it feels so personal to have others read your work. No matter how good you think it is, there’s always an underlying fear that people will hate it, or maybe even worse just not care about it at all. As much as I’d like to shout “I don’t care” it’s hard not to when it’s little pieces of you. Wether you write or paint or sculpt or decorate or design. Sing, play, dance… it’s all an expression of you. Droplets, pieces, or chunks, it’s a little you and it can be scary to share it.

So with that said I suppose my number one New Year’s resolution is to be brave. To be bold. To make more noise.

I could write a whole list of resolutions but the truth would be that not one could be accomplished without a little bravery and boldness.

A new decade is upon us. A whole lot will happen in the next ten years. I’ll turn 40 (eventually…), in a few months my rainbow baby will celebrate his first decade in the world, I’ll learn to parent teenagers, we’ll celebrate a 20 year marriage, a teen or two might even move out on their own (I don’t even want to talk about that!), there may be hard times and losses too. But there will most certainly be love, dance parties, great books read, amazing tv moments, excellent cups of coffee, hugs, really good music, friendships, and adventures, so many adventures!

And so I’m calling it. The is the decade of Bravery and Boldness. Take up some space. Kill ’em with kindness. Use the word ‘no’ whenever you want. Say ‘yes’ whenever you really want to. Sit up straight. Push your shoulders back. Make some fucking noise. MAKE ALL THE NOISE!

Cheers in the New Year!