A Classic Doom Spiral

I wrote this in May and never published it. I was busy…..dress rehearsing tragedy. “Joy is the most vulnerable emotion we experience and if you cannot tolerate joy, what you do is you start dress rehearsing tragedy. Dress rehearsing tragedy is imagining something bad is going to happen when in reality, nothing is wrong. “How…

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Saying Yes

I almost said no. Again. I wrote out the message, full of sorries and regret. xxxxxxxxx I watched each letter disappear. Why was I saying no. Why is my default to turn down a good thing. Good offers and compliments seem to be my kryptonite. My knee-jerk reaction is to recoil, run, hide. I wish…

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